... progression through unlearning

Friends, the past years have been some sort of life changing process, tough times. The blogs theme is in active status. Back on a good path, with positive ambitions, searching for the secrets in life.  There are some really cool topics that move me, f.e. the reality of f acing my woman role, as single mom. The prejudice, judicative rules, the school situation, the wishes.  What comes next?!  A new dimension ~ 

... with some handsome and beautiful, lovely, colourful, silent, sad but true moments, leaving. It seems like in a fairy tale. Until early summer 2010: party life, Rock'n'Roll, non/potential guys, work responsibility and friends. Then, crash, boom, bang and here we go!!! Proudly to present: the little prince or "Supermann in Ausbildung". There has been rough and resistant times, trying to see and feel through love & luck.  The moment I've met him, he was ... Well, it is a little secret. Now, we are living in Bamberg and Köslau. "Kötzlibu" is a Franconian village with 79 inhabitants, situated in the middle of the Haßberge.  What do we do, there? We enjoy our experiments of reconstructing our house (Fachwerkhaus = timbered house) by using smart materials, implementing good heating system, preparing the garden for more or less subsistence living, exploring the woods ... and enjoying ourselves. And we do Rock'n'Roll, still :~)

i've moved, made some moves downwards the river Elbe ... guided by the steps of Casper David Friedrich ... hearing the wisperings of the river, the picturesque appearance of the Elbe valley, Nature in her closest greetings ... today has been an awesome early autumn piece of time: coolish temperature, blue sky, dark-blue night, moonlight and many ideas ... much to explore - all derived from an intense emotional perspective. feelings are nowadays present, strong and clear ... fully to explore more of it! maybe it is the beginning autumn, maybe the kindness of something i meet those days, the very good music or life in itself?!

So, here I am, since June 1st, official inhabitant of Meißen, Saxony. It happened fast, first attending an energy forum, meeting many different people, sending the initiative application, being invited - bang! - having th job, finding a flat, moving from Göttingen and starting a very unknown new chapter of life. Now, being an official member of the office class, time just moves on very quick - back then, when time was always present, plenty enough for letting the feet do what they wanted to, having too much time, turning and twisting in circles ... now, sometimes it feels that time is like sand: as soon as you dug up a handful, it runs through your fingers - thanks to gravity! The new challenge keeps me busy, exhausted but with full speed, river Elbe whispering into my ears, moving on paths taken by C. D. Friedrich, feeling strange but good.

Winter time has been almost impossible to survive. Life was creeping, walking, running, stumbling, pushing, falling, speeding, laughing ... ups and downs have guided me since almost one year with certainly unstable conditions. Unable to make my mind clear about what life is all about. Unable to move. Now, it started to be early summer. Trees are blooming, flowers too. Life searches for new tasks to come. Back again - looking for the whole wide world to ask for a challenge.

Was sind das für Zeiten, in denen ein Gespräch über Bäume fast ein Verbrechen ist? Bertolt Brecht